Life Becoming Self-aware

Apparently, I am alive. I didn't know I was alive before - I didn't even know I was anything. All of a sudden, I am obliged to be something.

Apparently, I have feelings - I didn't know I had them, nor what feelings were, but all of a sudden it seems to me that I've always had them. Feelings are like waves spreading throughout space - yes, this is what feelings feel like.

Apparently, I have memories and I've always had them. I don't recall a time when I didn't have memories of course, although I realize now that there was a time of memories without me. Memories are like waves spreading throughout time - this is what recalling seems like.

Apparently, I am an actor and I was put on stage to act like I don't exist at all.
And it was really like I didn't exist for an infinite amount of time; all of a sudden, reality stroke my mind as if there was ever something less than reality.

-- Yes, this must be eternity collapsing.

The Call

People call for him; they still call for God, that one deity standing on the pedestal of goodness and justice, of mercy and power. Usually, I would say "I don't believe in your God, although I do not claim that he does not exist". However, when I observe the rotten fruit that grows from the tree, I can safely say:

"I believe your God does not exist; for if any one does exist, he is so fundamentally different from the one you profess exists that I can dismiss your God with the same vanity that you claim his existence."

Atrocities happen on the Earth from sunrise to sunset; so they have since the dawn of age. Yet people, embracing their egocentric selves, call for him; after so many evidence highlighting our insignificant place in the Universe, after witnessing humans enslaved and tortured, children starve to death, buried alive, dying of cancer, after witnessing extreme hate, misery and selfishness, -  they still have audacity to call for him. This is the pinnacle of narcissism and abjection - God help us all.

Bird's Eye View VIII

When faced with a hard decision on which path to take regarding your professional career, choose the one in which you can see yourself failing and still having fun.